At some point in your life someone is going to try and control your happiness.
They will think it’s their business on how you use your happiness and where you find it.
But it never is.
They will try and dictate it and give reasons on why your happiness will effect their own happiness. Finally they will throw their ace card on the table and explain to you ‘that they are only asking you to do what’s best for you.’
But it’s your happiness isn’t it? At the end of the day it’s your life right? It should only be you who is worried about maintaining your happiness, and not have the burden of someone else tugging on it. So why do you feel so guilty?
Maybe you should put your happiness on hold for a little while. Just until this person is ready. If it means this person can keep their own, maybe it’s the right thing to do.
If this person has a problem with your happiness that’s their own problem. When does someone ever think it’s their business on how you should live your life.
Yes maybe that college course will turn out to be the wrong choice for you and ok maybe there is a chance that person will break your heart (my god that chance is always there.) But it’s your happiness. It will come and go but when you are in the moment that you have a hold on it, no one should be selfish enough to try and take it away from you.
But I’m being a hypocrite. I’m writing these words to you and yet I’m not living by them. And do you know what? It’s exhausting to try and make sure someone is content in their life, when it means you have to give up your happiness.
I’d tell you to tell the person how you feel. But I’m sure you already have. So what do you do now?
Honestly I don’t know. But what I do know, is that you need to fix it.